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Things She Says

22 Jul

I’m in the office and hear the little voice shout.

“Momma, I’m hungry!”

Looking at the half empty thing of yogurt.

“You can come finish the yogurt then.”

A heartbeat passes.

“Momma, I’m not hungry anymore.”

I love my daughter.

Day Fifteen of Gratitude :: Technology

15 Nov


Technology makes it possible for me to do what I can. I am so fateful for it!

Update Again

23 Aug

Friday we had another appointment for a CT scan to check on his condition.  We were suppose to have the follow up appointment this friday. Got a call yesterday saying we had to reschedule for the next friday. Granted, it was because the Drs wife had a baby, but I was still freaking out a little. Last time, we were blindsided to learn that one of the arteries in the back of his neck had dissected. So I asked if I could get a hint this time, since I would have to wait an extra week.

Got a call back and they said that his condition is stable. I’m guessing it means the tear didn’t heal, but it means that it hasn’t gotten worse. No getting worse is a major blessing. Not having to worry about waiting two weeks to find out the news is even better.

Praise God.

Another Week Gone

6 Aug

It’s another Saturday. Today, I work until 1 and then am going with a ton of family to experience Les Miserables, the Broadway musical. When I was going to school in Eugene and lived 2 hours away, the Les Mis soundtrack kept me company many a trip. I could start it as I left home and know it would keep me entertained until I arrived. Anything that kept me awake and active on that drive was so welcomed.

I am ready to be crying in the theatre. The recording would make me cry (especially Empty Chairs at Empty Tables) so I am sure that the live production will have me in tears as well. The whole Fantine character will make me emotional especially I’m sure, now that I’m a mother…

It’s odd, because I use to connect with Eponine the most. Unrequited love and all that. But no longer.

I’m excited and ready to go! Is it 1 yet?

A New Normal

24 Jul

Life has developed a new normal lately. I never thought I’d miss the time I spent roaming around the internet being bored.

Each day has been crazy in its own way. I haven’t even sat at my computer since Wed. My only access to the outside world has been on my phone. Thank goodness for it or I’d be completely lost!

Ryan has been doing amazing. He’s watching Avi most days when I work. This week she’s spent one night with her Nana and Papa and this weekend she was with Grammy. Even though I’ve been working anywhere from 8 to 11 hours, it’s been so nice to get home and take care of just myself. I’ve been putting myself to bed with a bowl of ice cream and a glass if wine. It’s been glorious but it’s also been a good reminder of how much I love my daughter. Everything reminds me of her and I miss the moments that I am home. Can’t imagine living without her. But she’ll be home when I get back tonight from work. Hurray!

I’m holding myself together. Some days are better than others. Always tired, but I’ve begun to accept that. It’s the new normal and the only way I can get anything done. Up around 7am and passed out by 10pm if I’m lucky.

Tomorrow is another day. And so is today. Life will go on and so will I.